My Head Is In The Sun

I feel creatively inadequate right now, but surprisingly I feel okay. I prefer to live life in the present because I have no control over the past or the future. I continue to simplify everything, have less to weigh me down, less to obstruct my freedom. I love being free and I'm not speaking in the "American" way. I want to make my own decisions and suffer my own consequences. I've always lived that way and I'll never stop. I am in constant motion, moving through time without definitive purpose, but always moving forward.

I fear the loss of my passion. Passion is what keeps me alive. When I am happy, I am really happy. When I am sad, I'm really sad. When I'm angry, I'm really, REALLY angry. But that's okay. These emotional highs and lows remind me that anything worth feeling is worth really feeling. I am, however, a man with two separate minds...one that let's me experience these feelings and one that keeps me rational and logical. It's this most delicate balance that allows me to be free.

I may forever be alone in this regard because I have yet to meet someone that experiences life in this way. I'll always have friends and family for companionship and so far, that seems to be enough. I think I'm going to let the world take me away now...into space...into the sun.

PEACE-